Nerves.

Are taking over my stomach.
I'm not hungry. Or so I'm telling myself.. My tummy makes a grumble but I've been telling myself it's nothing.

Pretty sure Ryan knows I'm barely eating.
He keeps making jabs at me about it.
Makes me nervous that he really does get it.
Makes me nervous he'll tell someone else.
Makes me nervous that he's not proud of me.
What if not eating upsets him more than me being skinny turns him on?

I don't care. I'm doing this for me. For my self esteem. For free weight watchers membership.
I'll learn about being healthy later.